Of there’s no exception.

Maybe I know, somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we’ve got to find other ways

To make it alone

Keep a straight face

And I’ve always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I’m

Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

The only exception – Paramore, 2010.

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I didn’t know my own strength.

Lost touch with my soul
I had no where to turn
I had no where to go
Lost sight of my dream,
Thought it would be the end of me
I thought I’d never make it through
I had no hope to hold on to,
I thought I would break

I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn’t know my own strength

Found hope in my heart,
I found the light to life
My way out the dark
Found all that I need
Here inside of me
I thought I’d never find my way
I thought I’d never lift that weight
I thought I would break

There were so many times I
Wondered how I’d get through the night
Thought took all I could take

I didn’t know my own strength
And I crashed down, and I tumbled
But I did not crumble
I got through all the pain
I didn’t know my own strength
Survived my darkest hour
My faith kept me alive
I picked myself back up
Hold my head up high
I was not built to break
I didn’t know my own strength.

Whitney Houston, 2009.

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Deeper Conversation

Every single thing about this song is so beautiful~

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Flightless bird.

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Honey bee.

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when you feel you’ve lost your way.

Someone emailed me this song, no boundaries last night when I was so depressed about my upcoming sooca which I have difficulty in remembering certain diseases and topics with a note : “when you feel you’ve lost your way”

I love Kris Allen. Not because he is cute (which is quite so true, hah!) but mostly because he knew that Adam was better than him, he knew that Adam would win the competition, he knew that all the judges and even the producer favored Adam, yet he tried his best, he never gave up because he loves singing  (does he? I thought his mom had to get a coupon just to make him sing in the past? hehe~). That’s the part about Kris that I love the most. He never gives up. He never lets all those negative vibes outpower him. Will I be like Kris?  Will I be lucky like Kris this tuesday? (but I believe that it’s not mere luck that brought Kris to the state of winning that day) Only God knows~

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want, but how long can you wait?
Every moment last forever.
When you feel you’ve lost your way.

What if my chances were already gone?
I started believing that I could be wrong.
But you give me one good reason.
To fight and never walk away.

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it’s harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing.

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

I fought to the limit, to stand on the edge
What if today is as good as it gets?
Don’t know where the future’s heading
But nothing’s gonna bring me down
I’ve jumped every bridge and I’ve run every line
I risked being safe but I always knew why
I always knew why

So here I am, still holding on

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it’s harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes
To get to that one thing

Just when you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you almost gave up on your dreams
They take you by the hand and show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule ’cause there’s nothing between you
And your dreams

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it’s harder to believe

Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step, you climb another mountain
Every breath, it’s harder to believe
You’ll make it through the pain, weather the hurricanes

There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.
There are no boundaries.

Below is the Adam’s version of no boundaries. I love Adam sang this song much more than Kris during the final show because he brought more energy to that song compared to Kris but now, listening back to the studio’s version, I think Kris do a better job at singing this song…

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Hate me.

I have to block out thoughts of you so I don’t lose my head
They crawl in like a cockroach leaving babies in my bed
Dropping little reels of tape to remind me that I’m alone
Playing movies in my head that make a porno feel like home
There’s a burning in my pride, a nervous bleeding in my brain
An ounce of peace is all I want for you. Will you never call again?
And will you never say that you love me just to put it in my face?
And will you never try to reach me? It is I that wanted space

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

I’m sober now for 3 whole months it’s one accomplishment that you helped me with
The one thing that always tore us apart is the one thing I won’t touch again
In a sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

And with a sad heart I say bye to you and wave
Kicking shadows on the street for every mistake that I had made
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes crying and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “make it go away!”
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”

Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you

Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you

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I’ll walk

Guys, you should try to listen to this song. It’s a nice song, no doubt.

I’m looking for the official music video but can’t find one on youtube. maybe it’s not out yet…

“I’ll Walk”

We were 18, it was prom night.
We had our first big fight.
She said “Pull this car over”.
I did and then I told her, “I don’t know what you are crying for”.
I grabbed her hand, as she reached for the door.

She said, I’ll walk.
Let go of my hand.
Right now I’m hurt, and you don’t understand.
So just be quiet.
And later we will talk.
Just leave, don’t worry.
I’ll walk.

It was a dark night, a black dress.
Driver never saw her, around the bend.
I never will forget the call, or driving to the hospital
when they told me her legs still wouldn’t move.
I cried, when I walked into her room.

She said, I’ll walk.
Please come and hold my hand.
Right now I’m hurt, and I don’t understand.
Lets just be quiet, and later we can talk.
Please stay, don’t worry.
I’ll walk.

I held her hand through everything.
The weeks and months of therapy.
And I held her hand and asked her, to be my bride.
She’s dreamed from a little girl, to have her daddy bring her down the isle.
So from her wheelchair, she looks up to him and smiles.

And says, I’ll walk.
Please hold my hand.
I know that this will hurt, I know you understand.
Please daddy don’t cry.
This is already hard.
Let’s go, don’t worry.
I’ll walk….

P/s ;

I know I posted a lot of crap lately and I am disappointed with my own self too but I have been jam-packed with a lot of things these past few weeks that really made me lost my mind.

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Gotta be somebody

kinda busy lately with all my school stuffs.

got a lot of things to write about (the Palestine, rumors about alonso migrating to ferrari in 2o15, the new Honda team buyer, new year and etc ) but time always doesnt permit me to do so.

for the time being, just wanna share a song that keep on humming in my head these pass few days~

This time I wonder what it feels like
To find the one in this life
The one we all dream of
But dreams just aren’t enough
So I´ll be waiting for the real thing.
I’ll know it by the feeling.
The moment when we´re meeting
will play out like a scene straight off the silver screen
So I`ll be holdin’ my own breath
Right up to the end
Until that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with

`Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere.
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight
And dammit this feels too right
It´s just like Déjà Vu
Me standin’ here with you
So I´ll be holdin`my own breath
Could this be the end?
Is it that moment when
I find the one that I’ll spend forever with?

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There´s gotta be somebody for me like that.

`Cause nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
There’s somebody else that feels the same somewhere
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

You can´t give up!
Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough
You never know but when it shows up
Make sure you´re holdin` on
‘Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

‘Cause nobody wants to be the last one there.
And everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Someone to love with my life in their hands.
There has gotta be somebody for me
Ohhhhhh.

Nobody wants to do it on their own
And everyone wants to know they´re not alone.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There`s gotta be somebody for me out there.

Nobody wants to be the last one there
‘Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares.
Is there somebody else that feels the same somewhere?
There has gotta be somebody for me out there.

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fall for you

currently addicted to this song, fall for you by secondhand serenade

The best thing about tonight’s that we’re not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?
I know you don’t think that I am trying
I know you’re wearing thin down to the core

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don’t make me change my mind

Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you’s impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I’d never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

Oh, but hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don’t make me change my mind

Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you’s impossible to find
It’s impossible

So breathe in so deep
Breathe me in, I’m yours to keep
And hold on to your words ’cause talk is cheap
And remember me tonight when you’re asleep

Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don’t make me change my mind

Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you’s impossible to find

Tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don’t make me change my mind

Or I won’t live to see another day
I swear it’s true
Because a girl like you’s impossible to find
You’re impossible to find

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